.October 9, 2007 ' 14:37 Y
and the story unfolds
she had the love she could never have. she was made the
luckiest girl in the world and still am. she didnt thought it
would come to this. but he was the best she ever had. his
touch, his fingers running down along her face. his breathing
against the skin of her neck. she could still feel it all. visions
of his face and the way he walks keeps playing in her head.
she is staring into space, starting to live in illusions. its like a
song, every word he said in every breath. he is just so awesome.
she would be lying is she said she doesnt hate him. beacause she
does. she hates him for loving her. she hates him for being so
awesome. he was the only one she could hold onto. he was the only
one she had. but everything had to crash&burn in seconds, just
when shes ready to give it all. the whole time she had with him was
simply joy and laughter. the warmth, the happiness. but nooo,
she was too busy caring about the world's feelings. she was so
selfish not to think about his feelings instead. and now that shes
ready, its just too late. too late to make it up. just, why? oh so
foolish, foolish little girl, she thought. she shouldve known
better herself. its her own fault now that shes in such deep pain.
she feels really selfish for putting him through all this. she feels
like a big blob of failure, she feels so pathetic and selfish. but
fret not, shes gonna be
bright&shiny. he still makes her smile
in the simplest way. although she has that crazy little hope in her,
shes not gonna be selfish. shes not gonna let that hope eat her
heart. because she knows whats best. what she has now are just
memories. memories of what they call 'love' he was the
one that could make her happy again. he was the one that
she loved so fucking much. he was her world. every second
spent with him was gold and diamonds. he was the best, the
best she ever had. now both hearts are shattered. but she
would be the glue that pieces them alllllllll together. carvings of
his name are deep in her heart. because thats the only thing that
keeps her heart together. hes the only reason that keeps her alive.
he is the reason shes going on strong. he is the hope she wanted all
this while. he is the joy and love that she could never find again.
he is the miracle that God presented her with. he is the voice in
her heart, he is her brightest star
and she will be bright&shiny
SITY KAY!